stalled....

So, I'm stalled...not just here, in life. I don't seem to LIVE my life as much as I just wake up and do what has to be done, feed Liv, get her to school, go to work, pick up Liv, bathe her, get her to bed, watch tv, go to bed....
I dream of going back to school to get a great job so I can buy a house someday! Losing weight and actually working out so I can move with my child and don't feel like I'm going to have a heart attack and pass out...I dream, I get motivated, decide I'm 'starting now' and think of all the baby steps...then I move past that into just being...just moving through every day.
Perhaps I need to REALLY start living, write a list of those baby steps, start doing and stop just thinking about it....I'm so tired of feeling like I'm waiting for my life to start!! That's sad, I'm 40! My life is 1/2 over and I'm just waiting for it to start....I better get a move on!!!

Meanwhile, Ben and Jerry's is calling me from the freeze...just thought I'd splurge...'just tonight' which I do almost EVERY night!!!! I'm never going to wake up someone else...I'm always going to be me....

Do you like the Balloon?

Last night I was starting the Blog...I've had NO IDEA what to call it....then Olivia walks up to me with a string of plastic beads tied around a balloon that was not even blown up and she asks, "Do you like the balloon?" She's all about making things, putting things together, building, and making things pretty....4 1/2yrs. is so much fun!!!! Wish I could go back in time and be one of her friends in preschool!!!!
Anyway, there was my title....

OK, here goes......

So, I wanted to start a blog a while ago...and all the friends who I've inspired to start one have started one....thought it was about time I took the 2 minutes it took to start mine!!

NO IDEA what will spill out onto this thing....but, since anyone who reads this will already know me, it will, simply be Jill!! So, welcome to the trip inside my mind, buckle up!!