So, I'm stalled...not just here, in life. I don't seem to LIVE my life as much as I just wake up and do what has to be done, feed Liv, get her to school, go to work, pick up Liv, bathe her, get her to bed, watch tv, go to bed....
I dream of going back to school to get a great job so I can buy a house someday! Losing weight and actually working out so I can move with my child and don't feel like I'm going to have a heart attack and pass out...I dream, I get motivated, decide I'm 'starting now' and think of all the baby steps...then I move past that into just being...just moving through every day.
Perhaps I need to REALLY start living, write a list of those baby steps, start doing and stop just thinking about it....I'm so tired of feeling like I'm waiting for my life to start!! That's sad, I'm 40! My life is 1/2 over and I'm just waiting for it to start....I better get a move on!!!
Meanwhile, Ben and Jerry's is calling me from the freeze...just thought I'd splurge...'just tonight' which I do almost EVERY night!!!! I'm never going to wake up someone else...I'm always going to be me....
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